For you, my brother...

There are never appropriate words to use to describe what the heart and soul would say. Especially when it has lost a piece of itself. The hurt never goes away...You just learn to cope in time...You try to remind yourself that that special someone is no longer in the past, but in your future. And you have to learn to let go of the past and work towards the time that you get to see them again...

This is dedicated to my inspiration, my teacher, my love, my confidence...my brother. You taught myself and others so many beautiful things in such a short period of time. It is hard to believe the differences you made and how many lives you touched with your kindness, your sense of humor, your honor, your hopes, and your belief in life itself...

You always told us that you would not be of this earth long. We never believed that, but you knew. You had a short time and you made the most of it. You knew things that most 14 year olds should not know at that age. You knew things that most people do not learn in a lifetime. You were honest, and fearless, and kind. You gave love and hope to so many. Laughter to those who needed it...Peace to those in pain.

Anyone who ever met you never forgot you...I never understood why you were taken from us so young...You had so much potential, so smart, and so much to give.

Someone told me once that if I were walking through a field of weeds and came across one perfect rose...what would I pick?? It makes sense...I understand. Your time here was short, but you knew your purpose and you fulfilled that purpose so that you could move on...You touched all of our lives in a way that we will never ever forget.

I cannot stop missing you, for my heart is broken still. I loved you more than life itself, and thought that I would always have you by my side. But I thank you for all that you taught me. Even though I was the big sister, you still taught me more than I would have ever learned by myself. You taught me to love and to care, you taught me to be fearless, you taught me the importance of confidence and of faith in myself. You taught me to be original and not to worry about what others think. You taught me not to judge. You taught me to laugh....and you taught me to value this life, and to cherish my loved ones, and what precious little time we have.

I am working toward the future, to the time I get to see you again. But in the meantime, you have to forgive the tears and the broken heart...a piece of my soul went with you...I miss you so much, and I will love you forever, my baby brother.